I am not an avid traveler and get nervous traveling alone and today was no different. I headed off to Ontario for the Preeclampsia Research Symposium which is being held in Toronto tomorrow. Brad took me to the airport and I could feel myself welling up with tears as I walked to the security gate. I am not sure where they were coming from but I held them back, kissed him goodbye, and headed through security. As I was walking in I looked down and saw a wallet on the floor belonging to a girl named, Kristen Kelly. I immediately passed it in and left an act of kindness card inside.
I went through the gate and as I was getting to the top of the escalator I could see a young girl ahead of me. I said Kristen’s name, hoping it was the person I was looking for, and she quickly turned around. I explained I had found her wallet and took her back to where I left it. She thanked me and I headed back to the gate when I heard “last boarding call” for my flight. I got there just in the nick of time.
As I boarded the flight I was thankful that I was able to do an act of kindness as it really lifted my spirits but it was also a reminder of how much I missed Jonah Wynn. And when I arrived in Montreal a deep sadness came over me. I was waiting for the next boarding call when I could feel the tears fall down my face. I tried to fight the sadness but it seemed the more I tried the more they flowed.
I tried taking a deep breath in and then back out again and finally got myself back to a better mental place. And for day twenty-one I knew that I needed to take a breath when I felt the need. So, I took my time boarding, tried focusing on my breathing while in the air, and was able to relax both my body and mind. By the time I arrived in London, Ontario I was in a better frame of mind and the night got better as I had several hours with my beautiful nieces Devin, Maya, and Lola. They truly were the breath of fresh air I needed.
Day Twenty-one: Take a breath.