I started a knitting class 3 weeks ago as a way of helping to keep my mind busy, to learn how to make knitted items for gifts and acts of kindness, and to help get me into the routine of getting out even if it is for only a short while. I can now say that I can knit, purl, read some basic patterns, and have knitted a couple Christmas presents for my nieces. I expected to learn to knit but I have gained so much more.
I believe every person who comes into our path is put there for a reason and each and every one of the ladies in our knitting class has in their own way helped me with my healing process. The instructor was learning about each of our families last night and when I was asked how many children I have and what they were like my heart started racing. I began to share how wonderful my 3 children are and went on to tell them that my daughter Jonah Wynn, although in our hearts, is not with us in person. As hard as it was to share a great feeling of calmness came over me. I felt each of my children with me, holding my hand, helping me through our story and when I was finished I felt so proud to be able to share our family with these women. They were very supportive and their words touching and telling our story helped me heal on so many levels.
Because the classes have gone so well, I felt it to be very fitting that Day 2 of 27 Days of Healing would be to do something new again for me that would feed both my body and soul. The last 6 months have been physically challenging for my body and last night at dinner when I received a call from Good Life Fitness for a free 7 day trial, passed on by my friend from childhood, I immediately made a date for the gym. I have been very limited in my activity level the last 6 months and walking a flight of stairs is tiring for me. So, I went with only one expectation – to do what I could without pushing myself too much. As long as I do more tomorrow than what I did today I will be happy. Both Angie and I chatted and did some exercise and followed up with a massage. I felt great. I managed to get out of bed and got moving early in the day, got some fresh air, exercise, and spent time catching up with an old friend. Taking back my life from Hellp Syndrome has been a long battle but I feel like I made some progress today. I still have a long road ahead of me but in the words of Laozi, “a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”
Day 2: Do something new that will feed both body and mind.